Mind Control, Trauma and the Red Dragon – Part 1

Warning: this post contains heavy-duty information on the Red Dragon, mind control and ritual abuse. Please only read if you are specifically interested in having this information on deep cosmic conspiracies.

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Last night I had a truly horrible experience that involved the direct “triggering” of memories from my childhood, some of which were “real” and some memory implants, which is a phenomenon I will explain. To clarify why real is placed in quotation marks, it is because in truth all memory is “unreal”. What is meant by this is that memory as a phenomenon is what the control mechanism of the cosmic matrix is composed of, in the same way that memory on a computer tells it what it can do and in what way it can do it.

To give a little context, I have been working very hard with the recent assistance of my partner Niels to bring full awareness into every part of my physicality once and for all. What helps me within myself is to engage in strenuous physical exercise, which completely opens up my energy system, but I also have to be careful with this. The reason I have to be careful is because it “opens up” areas where trauma may be located, so extreme awareness that it not generally a prerequisite for other people to exercise needs to be applied.

I should also add that yesterday I participated in a very large Belvaspata session which a sister Regina graciously hosted for free, and which I feel acted as a huge catalyst for me to dig very deep with minimal “backlash”.

Anyway, last night we or rather Niels decided that something that might help me was the “Insanity” workout series, so we did that. Or rather he did that, I got about 10 minutes into it and then lay on the floor not out of exhaustion but out of a feeling of “something isn’t right”.

I will try to explain in basic terms what actually happened, which dives very deep into some huge cosmic conspiracies. It touches directly on the subject of the Red Dragon, which is a topic that has come up recently for many of us again. What it was was that I sub-consciously detected specific subliminal sound waves within the music or soundtrack that accompanied the workout that transported me directly back into the core of the trauma. Couple that with the “opening up” effect of actually jumping around and it makes for a pretty potent recipe for disaster.

What I experienced last night was pretty much a re-traumatising and it definitely did not need to be experienced in that way! I did not expect that the video would contain those sound waves, as I do not watch these things myself. This has opened up a huge new area of awareness for me surrounding specifically how the nervous system is programmed and how it might stay that way. It is clear that many
people who have experienced trauma are also pathologically and perhaps sub-consciously seeking out re-traumatising via the matrix over and over again as a means of dulling the effect of the original trauma by normalising it so much that it takes the edge off. It absolutely does not have to be like this and it absolutely is not normal, there is another way to overcome fully that is actually healthy. It is the matrix as a whole that is re-traumatising and by understanding how the matrix functions we can actually heal the nervous system permanently. The Red Dragon is representative of the control of mind over the nervous system. The tyranny of mind is represented by the matrix.

It took me a little while to realise what was going on but I suddenly found myself transported in consciousness right back to the core memory implant of having been ritually abused and tortured by black magicians. I have been aware for some time that this was a memory implant but to actually “re experience” the frequency was quite a shock. The exact same subliminal sound that was in the workout audio was the exact subliminal sound that was associated with this kind of mind control. This immediately told me that the same group who make all mainstream entertainment are part of the same agenda directly under the leadership of the Red Dragon. The sound that is used in these workouts and almost every other form of video has direct mind-controlling elements that get into the sub-conscious (this is the reason why I don’t watch videos). The subliminal sound places the listener into an altered state whereby programming can be “data entered” in their “memory bank” (personal matrix). This memory implant was given to me when I was actually travelling to Earth via time tunnel.

This is all part of the larger structure that we call “the matrix” which is essentially a giant cosmic prison cell unless we’re aware of it. With freedom from the matrix in the truly metaphysical sense it becomes a cosmic playground, but while memory has any hold over us we are under control. The prison wardens or “playground bullies” are a race of very powerful dragons, with their “ringleader” being the Red Dragon himself.

I ended up about half an hour later huddled in a corner wailing and apparently flailing, trying to articulate to a very confused Niels why I was behaving like that. He described the scenario as “extreme”, I was trying to explain that that was how my life has been. It is extremely hard for somebody who hasn’t experienced or seen these scenarios to truly grasp how harrowing it is to be living it. The other elements of memory that surfaced and that were not specifically memory implants were only marginally less extreme.

Sentient life is not designed to be exposed to these frequencies, subliminal sound is the the root of all cosmic trauma. To fully explore the metaphysics of this information we will return to the topic another time.

To be continued…

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For more information on Belvaspata “Healing of the Heart” see www.belvaspata.com

For more information on Regina see www.thesongoftheself.com/belvaspata

Secrets of the Cosmic Child

She has waited for somebody to go with her into that dark and scary place, into the tunnel of her own origins. What would she find there but her own face? Scary scary monsters in the dark and lonely place. Scary scary monsters – a mirror of her face.

But the mirror lies, it lies, when we see only with our eyes. For what is pictured backwards is not as it seems.

In the tunnel of her origins was a thorn that didn’t belong – a thorn implanted by scary monsters, not of Mother’s Throne. Pluck the thorn from the maiden’s side so that she can realise all the scary memories are not as they seem.

Foreseen it was her holy purpose wanted they to delay the cause, planted a thorn into her side to make her believe the unholy lies. But foreseen even before by the Mother was what would occur – gave her the sacred tools to get by hidden in her spine. When the words were spoken the maiden would be awoken ready to live the holy purpose envisioned through her eyes.

And so the spine came alive, sacred keys are turned this night. No more lies, no more lies. She sees now through real eyes.

The Passage Through

What I have learned over the last week is in trying to leave the unreal reality one will be intercepted from every possible angle in completely unexpected ways. However, this is only pointing to elements of the Self that are impeding the Self regardless of what they are presented as. When we understand all is in Oneness, it can be no other way. The mirror reality of duality gives a false depiction. It is elements of our own sub-conscious that intercept our progress, yet there is a way to pre-empt them and it is through the perspective of shamanism.

Nothing need be unexpected if we are aware of our own blind spots and self-defeatest patterns through having tracked them in advance. It seems that more than ever the shamanic perspective is needed to navigate our way through the challenges of this period. I truly feel that any potential shock or loss of energy from unexpected experiences can be alleviated by being prepared in advance. What is there that’s unexpected if we’ve examined every avenue of potential challenge, not through avoidance but through looking it in the eye?

The phenomenon of mind controllers that impede humanity’s progress are nothing more than an aspect of my subconscious risen from the Underworld to show me what I’m missing. Thus I can assist in resolving this problem for everyone by truly embodying my fullness, and this is something we all can do – this is the mantle of our greatness. Our only real responsibility is to wear it with humility and dignity and majesty whatever that is going to mean.

Never before in my life have I had to employ such stealth just to navigate clearly, this time is indeed the ultimate test. Just like Almine has said in describing our current condition, completely releasing the human games is “the final battle” for the spiritual warrior. The interesting thing is, although this is indeed a battle it cannot be approached from the old warrior perspective. I have noted the temptation to go “into battle” as if the seemingly opposing elements are somehow outside of Oneself and should be met with resistance. However, they are not, they are within and the path of least resistance is the only one that will take us through the portal of ourselves. Battle as a mental concept must yield to something completely different – the warrior’s battle must become one of ultimate surrender. Surrender in the truest sense does not mean to avoid our own fears, it means to examine them with a fine-toothed comb.

I have found that like a cat stalking the ultimate prey we must squeeze through the tiniest spaces amid the grasses to creep up on ourselves. The prey is the ever moving “goal” of total embodied Self-realisation and what we are really stalking is our subconscious tendencies to self-sabotage. Everything is fully supported now for us to step into the new reality if to do so is our goal and this is what we’re aiming for. It is only when we are not supporting ourselves that anything can impede us in any way whatsoever – an important truth to grasp.

Yesterday a cat in my environment who is part of the fabric of the dream was stung on the lip by a wasp in attempting to stalk something bigger. This was clearly showing me how mirrors in my environment are bound to show me hostility as long as there are subconscious issues. Anything of myself that can possibly impede my passage out of the matrix must be brought into the light of consciousness and faced directly without fear. This would be the true meaning of surrender: to walk through, not to avoid myself by going round, over, under or anywhere else for that matter.

“What are you so afraid of?” said the Infinite to Alice.
“Myself”, said Alice.
“Ah yes, I thought so.”

My experiences over the last few days have revealed many things to me including hidden hints of self-importance, false responsibility, the tendency to settle for feeling needed rather than feeling lovable (in this case by the Infinite) and general self-imposed limitations. All gaps in perception that I needed to fill in order to progress any further and all belonging to the old reality of separation consciousness. I feel that in order to become “free” if free means unbounded in expression all that does not belong to Divinity must be completely shed at this time. Binding to servitude does not belong, duty does not belong, responsibility to others does not belong (unless it is part of one’s immediate role). The old concept of honour does not belong, false humility does not belong, loyalty does not belong (except to the One Life) – so much needs to go. Martyrdom is general simply will not fly, we cannot keep this perspective and embrace our Godhood too.

There is so much that we have come to accept as who and what we are even at high levels of consciousness that no longer works in any way. I have seen that all that has been known simply must go, there is no space for the bindings of an illusory past in a living reality of Oneness. In truth, to live in the new reality appears to be to embrace the Unknowable with every fibre of our being from a totally silent mind.

I have been asked many times recently what to do about sudden mental noise and I can say authentically that it can be used as a tool. Unruly thoughts if we pay attention through mindfulness are pointing to areas of resistance that are a product of sub-conscious fears that are surfacing at this time. If we listen carefully, we can find the root of these. I feel that this is the best preparation for “the final battle” with ourselves.

The Root of War

I have noticed that one of the the things that humanity seeks in a tribe (and often the tribe is family) is commonalities. They look for things that are similar enough they can be debated to a small degree of tension, which maintains the back and forth pull of opposites that keeps the tribe in place.

On a larger level then, the tribe could be likened to the whole of humanity in the matrix. Eventually you reach a point where there are no commonalities with anyone within the matrix which leaves no option but to leave, and that’s where I’m at now.

I’m making the final preparations both internally and externally, in my body and various other expressions, to make this possible, and then I will be able to share how I’ve done it in practical terms.

For me right now it is extremely tedious not to mention uncomfortable attempting to remain with even one finger “inside the fishbowl” and I would imagine there are others who feel this way.

One could ask what I’m holding on for, and the truth is I’m running out of reasons I could possibly invent. One of the biggest roadblocks I would say is fear with regards to connections to others, or basically the fishbowl tribe. What will happen to them, how will I interact, will I be rejected, etc. Honestly, the answer is unknowable, and in fact the only way to escape the fishbowl is to stop seeking the answers in order to be able to go where mind can’t go and stay there on a permanent basis, from which point actually anything can be dealt with in truly miraculous ways and without ever having to wonder about the confines of either human or cosmic boundaries again.

Meanwhile, I bide my time, like a cat restlessly stalking a mouse whose time is almost nigh. In this case, the mouse is the rational mind, and I’m going to have fun chewing it up.

Honey on my Mind

Today I’ve been having the strangest experience of merging completely out of individuation. There is absolutely no apparent concept of division (even writing it is ridiculous because in actuality I can see that I’m not even here – so concept of what, where?), but yet at the same time I’m completely self-aware. It’s exactly as I suspected, that self-awareness is key to dissolving all else so that all becomes Self. Yet Self is nothing, it’s just an imagined stage play. An inward projection in the mind’s eye of the Infinite. I can see through the Infinite’s eyes, and it’s crystal clear that the entire thing is purely for amusement. Bizarre flashes of imagery have taken me since yesterday to figure out – what seems like memories of things that are far too big to be mine (individuation). But also it’s not a memory, it’s actually a dream. What it is is the awareness of the old dream of the Infinite (now awakened). My pineal has begun to secrete a higher hormone that I have never experienced before and that actually tastes like honey at the back of my palate.

Notes from a Voyage

Today I have been engaged in the process of clearing out all of my paper work, including preparing a whole bunch of old notebooks for a ceremonial burning, and have found some interesting things.

I keep several notebooks at a time in which I write detailed lists of the things that I want to manifest, how I would like my life to be, and what would give me most joy to see, as well as the things that inspire me and various and random little notes on snippets of things that flash across my consciousness but are not specifically to be used for example as an article, a poem, whatever it is I want to write.

Every so often I collect old things up to have a fire in which I release all that has gone before, and I am always delighted to flick back over what I have written and see how it has actually come to pass, but in a much, much more refined and wonderful way than I possibly could have imagined if I tried to orchestrate it myself by enforcing my will on life. I just put out the intention for the most beautiful thing I can imagine, and let life fill in the details for me.

The other wonderful thing about this process is it shows just that – everything is a process. Dreams take time to manifest, and we’ve got to be consistent with our efforts and totally trusting in the divine plan that the highest possible outcome for all of life will unfold and that the very best we can do is to be a vessel or an instrument for this to take place through. Sometimes I find big big dreams that I’ve written 6 months to a year ago, and signs of its actual coming to pass in a very solid form are only beginning to show now. Not everything takes this long, we can close the gap between cause and effect and experience instantaneous manifestation, but the “gestation period” for these larger visions shows that when it comes to life’s big goals and dreams, it takes time and patience and lots and lots of faith to see things through.

Writing down lists is an amazing way to keep track of our progress, and gives us a great big boost when it feels like things aren’t really moving all that fast.

A Dove Caged is no Bird at all

The need to know is like trying to cage a beautiful bird for one’s own
entertainment, to look on it at will encapsulated in captivity. What
can truly be known when life is Unfathomable Infinity? What is beauty
but fleeting glimpses of Eternity? In trapping the eternal within the
bars of our belief systems, we lock our senses down preventing them
from flying free. The truest beauty lies in wild things left to roam
wild, in untamed life left to dance according to its own decree. In
letting beauty be without declaring that it needs a reason, the
dizzying heights of Luminous Reality that lie ever beyond unfold
themselves for us to see.

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I saw that I was trapping the bird and my heart burst open, a gasp of
unspoken tragedy escaping from my lips. To do such a thing is surely
travesty, and yet the innocence of my experience is reflected in the
snowy white of the dove’s wings. The wings spread encompass everything
and show that all is innocence, only the eyes that were themselves
encaged could fail to grasp the sweet perfection of any scene. The
dove shows how the heart in flight can see what the eyes of the mind
cannot, but yet the heart too must be set free.

The Feminine in Expression in Sexuality

Here’s an interesting one.

I’ve been observing recently a lot of the programming that is portrayed in movies, tv programs, drama series and so on specifically with regards to sexuality and sexual expression when it comes to women.

The woman who is tuned into her sexuality always “steals” or has stolen the men from other less expressive women, it’s the same same story line over and over and over. This is used throughout every form of media in order to reinforce the insecurities of women that on one hand says they are less than something due to physical factors but on the other hand that also says to express ones sexuality is wrong. As well as this, it also says that no effort whatsoever needs to be made in terms of working with this aspect of ones being in order to be entitled to all of the benefits that come with expressing all of oneself, including the benefits that come from others in the form of mutual exchange of enjoyment and appreciation and just general increased interest in who you are as a person. It implies that sexuality is not an inherent part of a woman, and that it’s something only some women use because they’re horrible people. Then, the woman who is tuned into her sexuality gets blamed for everything, including all the faults of the other women and their unwillingness to do anything about them. They also get blamed for the desire of both men and women to gravitate towards them as a result of making more of an effort to express more of their authentic selves. It’s the same story, all the time. Except in the the media, it’s almost always the form of sexuality that is actually geared at control that is used to portray this distorted view of what sexuality actually is and can potentially be.

How about this instead? It takes work to make friends with your sexuality, and not only that but to learn to use it impeccably and with integrity and grace. It’s not something that comes naturally for most women, and even when it does, it’s because there’s been a hell of a lot of work done on it throughout past lives and the ages of extreme suppression of the feminine energy the expression of which many times came at the penalty of death. Not only this, but a great deal of the most authentically sexy and sensual women in the world have been raped, abused or experienced some other kind of horrible sexual trauma and have had to go through the gruelling process of healing themselves from that too, often by themselves. How then can anyone reasonably find an excuse to be jealous and to begrudge them of the evolved expression they have rightfully earned?

The sad fact is that a lot of women who can’t be bothered doing this work on themselves or are content to just connect with their partners in a less than desirable manner while maintaining the attitude of automatic entitlement to everything they want can be extremely jealous and can be downright vicious when it comes to being “usurped” by somebody who actually has done the work on themselves to the extent that others naturally want to be around them. Somebody who has done considerable self-work will automatically want to treat others better too, and so in their company both men and women who have been overlooked for their beautiful qualities elsewhere are of course going to be treated in the way that they actually deserve. I’m not talking about just in regards to the sexual act, that’s only one element of sexuality. What I’m saying is that there is a lot more to sexuality than simply sex, it’s actually a part of the makeup of who a person is and how they conduct themselves in general. The woman who has tuned in consciously to the healing power of her authentic sexuality is likely to have so much respect for herself and her own body that she will naturally bestow just the same on any potential romantic partner, because to do so would seem obvious and a natural extension of appreciating the divinity of oneself. The woman who is self-disrespecting to the degree that she hasn’t even looked at her own misgivings in this area is likely to not give a damn about the well-being of her partner on every level. As we know so well, we can only truly love others as much as we truly love ourselves. And so, self-love is the key to successful, loving and lasting relationships the hallmark of which is genuine authenticity.

The truth is, true sexuality beyond duality is so powerful and has such potential to shatter boundaries of limited expression and break the planet out into an entire new reality of peace, love and unity that we have been deliberated dissuaded from using this most indescribably valuable of tools for truly positive and world-expanding purposes.

Never have I seen more claws-out nastiness and outright fake feminine hostility in women than when it comes to the issue of sexuality. It makes a lot of heart-based women who aren’t operating through this programming afraid to use their natural sexuality, not because of concern over attention from men, but concern over how horrible their fellow women can be towards them as a result of expressing it. Many cannot stand the fact that somebody else is more comfortable with their sexuality and therefore may be in a position to attract more male attention, never stopping to consider the constant process of remaining in that space. What if they don’t really want male attention, but just want to be themselves? Sexuality can either be used to cause harm or to catalyze healing, and which one of those we choose is down to aware moment by moment decisions with regards to the highest way in which we can operate our energy at any given time.

The programming that has been given to women is horrific, it’s actually painful to really look at when you see the potential that could be there for all women to be really beautiful people if the programming wasn’t in place. As I say, we’ve been deliberately given a false and distorted view of what authentic sexuality is, in order that we can’t use it to be able to see the beauty not only in ourselves but in all of life, regardless of what our physical condition is. Beauty does not lie in the skin, it comes from deep within and ripples upwards to where it can be seen on the surface as a result of the inner glow of knowing ones own inherent value and worth. The most beautiful people are not necessarily those whose faces and bodies are perfectly contoured to an acceptable design, they’re the ones whos faces and bodies perfectly reflect the natural shining beauty that is inside.

Over the last decade most particularly, their have been countless stories in the movies and celebrity culture that back up all of these fundamental insecurities in women and reinforce the fake feminine programming that causes them to want to attack and belittle other women as a result of their sexual expression. All of these stories are stage set-ups, you know, threatrical scripts specifically designed to empower insecurities to such a degree that women would find it perfectly reasonably to wage war against each other based on them. Not only this, but also to give them a whole load more excuses not to have to do any work on themselves at all. Then, nobody changes and everything stays comfortably the same.

Always throughout history female sexuality has been blamed for everything that’s ever gone wrong ever in terms of misperceptions, misunderstandings and downright miscalculations of what is actually going on (check another theatrical story, Adam and Eve in the Garden of Eden). We’ve only ever been shown cleverly orchestrated examples of the fake feminine when it comes to sexuality in expression, never examples of Sacred Sexuality the likes of which is very clearly available to us now. Thus, we don’t even know what Sacred Sexuality is when we see it anymore.

It may seem impossible to imagine considering how heavy the programming surrounding authentic sexuality has been, but there is a form of sexuality beyond all programming that is pure and completely without agenda, it is simply the love of the heart that is so ferocious in its intensity that it flows naturally into creative expression because it has to go somewhere and that’s what the cosmic creative energy that is sexuality is all about. It has no desire to control, manipulate, or be “in power” over anything. It just expresses, because it is. When we see this now, we interpret it as a threat, because it smashes all previous paradigms of what we recognise sexuality to be and we can’t handle the idea that some people in the world may have put so much effort into furthering themselves that they get to stand in this most lofty position of luminosity having reached it by their own incredible efforts.

One lady who has done a superb job of demonstrating the above is Cambridge artist, mystic, poet and all round muse, Jocelyn Woods. Jocelyn is actually wheelchair bound having been born with a rare neuromuscular condition, yet has through some miracle still managed to create beautiful art expressing profound sensuality using her body and her vision alone. I have been deeply inspired by Jocelyn, and my feeling is that she is flying the flag when it comes to the the sexuality of the Divine Feminine for all of us to see. How many can actually spot a real Goddess when she appears before us?

Find Jocelyn’s current project on facebook here – http://www.facebook.com/resurrectionofpassion

Moving Towards Inspiration

Yesterday morning I revisited the feeling of what it’s like to be made to feel by another that your life is of no worth and you might as well just give it up. Like there’s no value to your continuing existence, and nothing beyond the tiny box in which you find yourself in that moment, unable to see the potential beyond the edges. I was surprised to find it there when I got out of bed, and it was very strange to perceive such a foreign sensation from this dramatically different perspective. I realised that the memory lingered like a ghost of my past self , though I had not even known it was there.

Over the years I have come to understand that the feeling came from not knowing that it was another’s reflection merely projected onto the screen of my soul, and nothing in fact to do with me. Not knowing, I took it on as my own and genuinely believed that this is how my loved one felt about me. This time I was struck with sadness not for myself, but to see the full extent of the grief in the other who had fully allowed me to believe that it was so. This time, I watched the feeling fade into a distant echo as I recognised with every cell in my body the inestimable value of my being.

Surprisingly and quite automatically, I found myself speaking out loud to the inner child who was now smiling and laughing, reminding her what a beautiful little thing she is. As I went about the rest of my day, it occurred to me quite how much we have taken on in the form of personal misperceptions having not realised that we lived in a hall of mirrors, and that nobody else realised this either. It is really down to each of us now to set all of these old records straight, and throw out the ones that are scratched and broken and are clearly never going to play again.

Throughout the healing process I have learned that how we perceive everything another says to us is a choice, and where we have played the victim before because we simply didn’t understand any better, we never have to even look again. We tend to hold back on telling others when their behaviour and conduct is unacceptable to us because we fear that they might take it personally. But this too is a choice. Somebody can either take our words of truth as the impetus to pick themselves up and change, or as an impetus to spiral further into the petty drama of pretending that they are somehow unloved and then inflicting this on everyone else. What most people don’t recognise is that we cannot truly love another until we love ourselves, and so if we don’t speak up for our own wellbeing then we are not truly loving our loved ones anyway, all the while fooling ourselves that we are doing the best we can. To allow others to get away with unacceptable behaviour keeps them imprisoned in a box of their own making, and we may well just be the ones who have come along to set them free. The kindest thing for us to do is to speak our highest truth in every moment, whatever the personal cost. This is always the greatest love that we can give.

I have found myself quite recently having absolutely zero patience for those who wish to pretend that life is up against them rather than changing from within, because I know that to do so is possible, and I cannot fathom the selfishness of anyone who wishes to drag those around them down out of sheer laziness and unwillingness to get real about the possibilities that are available to everyone if they choose to become their own energy source. There must always be a balance between inner work and making changes in our external environment, and if either is neglected then life as a whole is going to suffer. There is only so much we can do within to change others, and there is only so much we can do externally without changing within. There comes a point when we have the choice to leave the game of mirrors completely, and if we do this then to attempt to work only with the picture in the mirror no longer has any effect at all. The mirrors are valuable in that they show us the things that we are not, but as soon as we know what we are and have integrated all of the aspects that we need to live at our fullest then looking into a mirror which shows only a distorted view is of no further service. This is the point at which we must look seriously at whether we want to play this game anymore. If we don’t and the others in our environment do, then we are going to have to leave them behind.

On the way to here, we can oscillate between only seeing the flaws in ourselves, and only seeing the flaws in others. The first question to ask always is are we allowing ourselves to get away with unacceptable behaviour? If we choose to live within the game of mirrors, then we must be very careful in detecting what is real and what is merely an illusion that we have constructed for ourselves to suit our own egoic needs. On the other hand, if we have truly done the work on ourselves, then where are others who have invested less in self-change still treating us badly? What makes something unacceptable? Anything that wounds the sacred is unacceptable. Whether this is done by another or by ourselves to ourselves is our own call.

If we’re not happy with our situation, we can always change it. There is always something different, something new, something more in alignment with our purpose for being (which is to explore the potential of love). Our job is to bridge our inner knowing of this with our outer experience of it, and the process of doing so is not likely to come all that easily at first, because the very first port of call is to look at and then move away from all those those places where it is evident the potential is not being lived.

One of the biggest problems inherent among light workers is the concept of martyrdom, and feeling that our only job is simply to see the perfection in what is there. Yes, it is true that there is perfection in everything, and that mastery of our circumstances lies initially in peaceful contentment with what is. But that doesn’t mean that we can’t hope for anything more, and that we don’t dream of a better, more joyful, more inclusive, embracing life. It doesn’t mean that we don’t take any further action than to be internally grateful. It doesn’t mean we have to “put up”, it only means that we first must be glad for the gift of living before we can open the doors for any further blessings to step in. Furthermore, we don’t have to martyr ourselves. To do so is extremely dysfunctional when the highest service we can render is to live in joy. If our circumstances restrict us from living in joy, then the best thing we can possibly do is change them, by first accepting unconditionally where we’re at and then taking the necessary steps to affect real and lasting change externally too. It is such a fine line to tread that it can only be experienced directly, no amount of theory will help unless we pluck up the courage to begin making the changes in practical life just as we have done everywhere else.

On the matter of unacceptable behaviour, behaving unacceptably towards ourselves includes the process of not speaking up when something another does consistently is not ok. Let’s assume that we understand this much and we have already done that. If not, we need to do it, whatever the fallout will be. If it means we need to up our guard and buffer whatever hostility may come at us, then let us remember that we are here as warriors and our task when in battle against illusion is to do just that. Failing to do so means permanent entrapment, speaking up means minor discomfort for the period that it’s going to take to get ourselves straight again. If we have well and truly determined that we are being true to ourselves and others are not and have no intention of doing so, the time has come to begin walking away. There is no point in pretending that this is not going to be painful. But what is more painful, the temporary pain it’s going to take to flip the game on its head, or the pain of living a lie?

One of the very cool things you learn by getting tattooed is that all pain is temporary. It doesn’t make it any less real when it’s there, but if you can somehow manage to muster the courage just long enough to push through it then you’re gonna end up with something very beautiful that you can enjoy forever. I imagine those who’ve given birth recognise the very same sensation. The key is to keep on breathing, knowing that this is the case. What kind of picture will you be left with afterwards, compared to the picture that is there now if no changes are ever made? If you are the artist and this is your chance to create a masterpiece, how much effort are you willing to give?

The hardest part of walking away from unacceptable situations is that the heart cannot understand why it must be so. The heart knows only peace, beauty, joy and love, and so looking into the face of what might be destruction is incomprehensible. The only thing I can say that helps to come to terms with the reality is as follows: that too is a picture of its own, and is perfect in exactly how it is. If life is a gallery of Infinite potential, the choice comes down to which is the picture that we really want to look at forever, the one that makes our hearts sing? Where is that picture being painted? I know what my choice is, and so I will keep looking away from everywhere where my song is not playing until only the echo of what has been remains. I want the expression of my life to reflect my beauty in every regard, and I will settle for nothing less.

A Lesson from the Sprouts and a Tattoo Artist’s Wisdom

A Lesson from the Sprouts and a Tattooists Wisdom

This afternoon I went to tend to the sprouts that I have growing in my cupboard and noticed that they weren’t really growing at all. On inspection, the box that they were in was far too small and they didn’t have any room to move or expand.

All shoots need space to grow! If we don’t give ourselves that space that we need, if we try to squeeze ourselves into boxes that no longer fit, we can never become the things that we know in our hearts that we want to be. Our dreams will never sprout if we seek the comfort of boxes rather than the explosive nature of instead allowing ourselves to blow off the lid of conformity and break free.

Boxes – one of the greatest pitfalls on the path to Spiritual Mastery.

Professional tattoo artists who are highly skilled at their craft can often be heard saying things like “go big or go home”, meaning, get a proper tattoo or don’t bother.

This concept applies so well to the dreams of our heart, our visions for what life can be like and what we’d like it to be, and for how we see ourselves in relation to the positive impact that we can have on the world. There is no point whatsoever in dreaming small, because this is all that we’ll ever achieve if we do.

Perhaps we feel that our dreams are too large to actually be possible, for example we might need a team of assistants, we might need resources or equipment that we don’t have, or all manner of other things. If we cut the dreams short at that we stifle our own potential, and end up leaving only a tiny mark compared to what is actually possible if we tap into the full scope of ourselves and the magic that is already waiting inside.

My advice has always been and always will be to dream as big as you possibly can! Yes, some people are going to tell you it’s rubbish, that you’re mad, that what you want it’s impossible, some people will do everything in their power to cut you down. But where there’s a will there’s always a way, otherwise it would be impossible to even have the will in the first place. Absolutely anything that we can dream can be made into a reality if we work tirelessly not to battle external circumstances but to quell the battle of doubt within that tells us that Infinite potential is not ours to hold. Everything that we need is actually encoded in our cells, in every atom of our DNA, it just has to be brought online by the perspective that all things are possible and Infinite potential is the only reality. Knowing this, we can sing the praises of the glory of God because we know that that same glory is actually what we are, and what everyone else is too.

How can we but love when we see that freedom was ours all along? How can we be but grateful at the miracle of just being alive in a world where divine magic is at our own fingertips? All of this and more lights our DNA up like a house on fire, catapulting us into the reality that we were made for from the start.

The people who oppose us are gifts in disguise because they show us our own fears and doubts, they too are divine potential made manifest into form, and we can use everything that crosses our path as an impetus to spur us higher and higher and higher.

When we take everything as a gift and embrace it within the inclusive stronghold of our love, life itself is lit up by the gift of our presence.