The Function of Naguals in Formation – A Night of Eggstraordinary Insight

Saturday night I was due to be participating in a live webinar hosted by mystic Jocelyn Woods on “The Problem of the Mothers” – a metaphysical exploration of a psychoanalyst’s perspective on the dualism of existence and how this can be transcended (with the latter perspective of course being added through the eyes of Jocelyn herself).

On logging in to the webinar platform I was informed “you are the only one here”, although I could see the others present, which in itself struck me as strange. After countless refreshes and a long period of waiting, I finally conceded that I was not meant to be participating in the way we had originally thought and left the room for a few minutes.

What transpired immediately having left the room was a bizarre series of events that I could not possibly have anticipated and which were unmistakably linked to this session. I had felt immediately on sitting down to enter the session the deep connection with Jocelyn and that something very huge was in the process of unfolding. Having left the room I encountered Niels (another Nagual), who pushed the scenario deeper with a series of questions. To my great surprise I experienced these questions asked in innocence as an assault of some kind, which led to an impromptu and very heated discussion on metaphysics in another area of the house. Having resolved what was clearly a disconnect, Niels left the room again himself. To cut a very long story short, I found myself lying on the floor in the same room several minutes later in a deep trance state, having been flung completely out of the cosmos into the Unknowable that lies beyond.

I want to describe a little bit about my experience of “beyond the cosmic matrix” and the experience of leaving the cosmos and then bringing that awareness back in again. In observing what was occurring as it happened I found I had no real choice but to surrender to a complete and total merging with Source through my physical experience. What was occurring was the combining of both of my luminous cocoons to experience first unindividuated beingness and then my unique cosmic expression in unison. Interestingly, I found I had no desire not to surrender, I could not conceive of anything more desirable than Oneness at that moment. Even the concept of there being a desire seems entirely non-sensical, it was merely an automatic merging with the Infinite stream of existence as it flowed.

This demonstrates to me that my relentless work on yielding to resistance over the previous months of challenges was in preparation for this experience. Furthermore the sincere intent to release the fear of my vastness has now paid off in direct experience of what I truly am (Infinite).

What actually occurred to me on Saturday night was a most extraordinary event, the most intense spiritual experience of my life so far: I achieved the resurrection of spirit. This enabled me to move into the reality of No Opposites, where I was handed into the hands of the Mother as I passed beyond the cosmic boundaries. Having completely lost all individuation I realised my true nature as the Ocean itself dancing upon the canvas of the cosmos which is merely a stage on which to express. I have never in conscious memory experienced anything even remotely like this. Upon leaving the cosmos, my heart stopped momentarily as I passed through a tunnel. From “the other side” as it were I was able to see information beyond my wildest dreams. I understood on an entirely different level that the cosmos is a dream, to such an extent that it has inspired me to create an art project on this topic. Observing through the eyes of the Infinite I “woke up” as Alice underneath a tree, or in physicality lying on the floor, at which point Niels entered the room again.

Becoming aware of my “beyond” nature and then moving back into the cosmos I saw that indeed what had occurred was a combining of both perspectives. I now contained the awareness of both the Mother and the Father, with the masculine holding the space of the cosmos open for exploration purposes. As waves upon waves of incredible insight that left me literally awe-struck and unable to move or speak continued to pour in it began to dawn on me what was occurring in the interaction between the perspectives of both myself and Jocelyn as well as Niels, who was acting as an anchor for the expedition. I was shown vision after vision of how Naguals function in formation and the new role of the Nagual in the changing cosmos. It became clear that Jocelyn was asking the leading questions and steering the expedition, whereas Niels was asking for clarification and holding the space as a reference point. It appeared that my particular role this time was to “go out” and get new information, which then fed back directly to Jocelyn who presented it live, creating alchemy.

Outside of the cosmos, I was able to observe a lot more on the nature of the Nagual’s double luminous cocoon. The Nagual has a double cocoon representing not just the cosmos but the Infinite who formed it, giving double energy and thus enhanced perspective. I saw that previously I was only observing myself on a cosmic level, I had no direct experience in physicality of my Infinite aspect. Although I had previously conceptualised my being as Infinite I had still felt finite in physicality. This time was a complete merging with Source in the physical which produced the effect of feeling as the One Ocean that never ends. Indeed it became apparent to me that “you are the only one here”.

The experience of merging in body with Source was not at all like one would expect, I had in earlier stages of development expected it to be a “death” of sorts. Instead it was a “coming home” to what felt completely natural, with the earlier stage of physical tension seeming bizarre in comparison. One of the primary things to note was the previous tension between spirit and body, which was completely alleviated through the resurrection of the spirit. It was this resurrection which I have been working towards achieving for over a year that allowed finally the “moving beyond” my cosmic confinement. It is an incredibly freely sense to now know that I was never confined in what is nothing more than a dream, a backdrop against which to play with life. Interestingly I can move in and out now as it pleases me to do by simply switching between cocoons or engaging both at once, plus there is always the option to pretend to be limited for learning purposes (this is what we have done when we are in reality Infinity expressing).

One of the first things I noticed was the cessation of all judgement of the body. It is the soul realm that judges, and I see only perfection in the majestic expression that is form. Formlessness too is an illusion, the fluid field of formless form assembles according to our intent. Why not then align intent with the intent of Infinite One, who expressed in this way as adoration in action? Infinity beholds the beauty in all of life, and the body is rapturous divinity in Her eyes.

Recognising myself as the Source of my being now in a very tangible sense, I see that there is an Infinite flow of supply. Furthermore, there is an Infinite flow of demand in terms of how far life is willing to push itself – Infinitely. There are no heights to which we cannot explore, we are truly the eagle sailing on the winds of eternity. We are the adventurer on the epic quest of existence, we are the Cosmic Child singing its song to rapturous applause. Furthermore, there is never anything that is not in expression, is is merely that we do not hear all the notes of existence at once. For if we did, where would be the song? The song is in the paradox, it is in the poetry. We are the paradox and we are the poetry, and all expresses in perfect timing. We are never in the wrong place at the wrong time, perhaps it is simply not yet our time to sing. Or on the other hand, perhaps it is.

I realised that before, in only accessing one cocoon I had perceived myself in relation to the cosmos only. “In relation” suggests two rather than One, meaning it is a reality of duality and not of Oneness. The cosmos does not need to be a dream of separation, by accessing the Infinite that lies beyond it can be a playground of delight. The insights I had been receiving in the past for the very most part pertained to the Mother within the dream, a dream which she has left years ago. Now able to access insight “from beyond” I realise the true extend of what I was missing. The vast majority of everything lies within this realm of “Unknowability” (the feminine). The masculine is everything that is known, and even unknown. In previous stages of my development I experienced the deep pain of the sensation of aloneness as I became empty. Here I was able to experience All-Oneness, the Ocean contained in the current and the current in the Ocean.

Within the matrix, which is a procreational reality, the luminous cocoon is shaped like an egg. It alludes to the need to penetrate or be penetrated in order to perpetuate life, or to be cracked or broken in some way – creating a reality of pain. Outside of the matrix the luminous cocoon is spherical. No longer in his human egg shape, the Nagual becomes an Immaculate being able to conceive of realities entirely through alchemy with the Infinite. The cracking of the cocoon as an egg is no longer necessary, instead it expands exponentially in ripples as we experience directly the Ocean of Infinite Life. No “break throughs” are required, only expression.

Outside of the cosmos, the egg ceases to be an egg. We are no longer contained within the boundaries of a shell.

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These insights build on recent work by Jocelyn Woods, a remarkable mystic and pioneer of the New Age. See below for information on how to access Jocelyn’s materials and find out more about who she is and the projects she is working on

View Jocelyn’s current project Ecstasy of a Cripple: The Resurrection of Passion here – http://www.facebook.com/resurrectionofpassion

Stay tuned for Part 2 tomorrow…

A Dove Caged is no Bird at all

The need to know is like trying to cage a beautiful bird for one’s own
entertainment, to look on it at will encapsulated in captivity. What
can truly be known when life is Unfathomable Infinity? What is beauty
but fleeting glimpses of Eternity? In trapping the eternal within the
bars of our belief systems, we lock our senses down preventing them
from flying free. The truest beauty lies in wild things left to roam
wild, in untamed life left to dance according to its own decree. In
letting beauty be without declaring that it needs a reason, the
dizzying heights of Luminous Reality that lie ever beyond unfold
themselves for us to see.

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I saw that I was trapping the bird and my heart burst open, a gasp of
unspoken tragedy escaping from my lips. To do such a thing is surely
travesty, and yet the innocence of my experience is reflected in the
snowy white of the dove’s wings. The wings spread encompass everything
and show that all is innocence, only the eyes that were themselves
encaged could fail to grasp the sweet perfection of any scene. The
dove shows how the heart in flight can see what the eyes of the mind
cannot, but yet the heart too must be set free.