An Update in Consciousness – Leaving a Trail

I’ve decided to share a bit more about what I’m working on in consciousness as it strikes me that the information might be useful to others too, and also that it acts as a useful marker point on the journey to refer to later. I am currently preparing for the evolutionary leap that takes me completely beyond the collective human condition, having attempted it several months back and failing to sustain it. The reason that I had failed to sustain it is very simple – I succumbed to the test of fear. I had not built up enough leverage to power myself through the challenges that would come through what was revealed. This weird phase of consciousness that I’m in at the moment is the source of the “depression” I’ve been talking about, although from the surface it might look like any other human experience. I will try to explain what I mean by that in a more refined way. The depression for want of a better word that I have been experiencing since I initially leaped beyond the human kingdom into what lies beyond is as a result of seeing directly from a clearer vantage point quite the extent of the human games. Had I managed to keep on moving through the fear I would then have encountered a more blissful experience that alleviated this. However, in the face of the overwhelming challenge that included the location of hidden childhood memory implants I entertained the fear that arose in a way I did not intend to do. Combined with the shock of seeing the games and the effect that had on me I plumetted back down again and found myself in an awkward position. Unable to pretend I hadn’t seen down the rabbit hole but no longer able to play the games, kind of like the guy in the movie The Matrix who wishes he could just forget everything and enjoy a steak, there was no going back, but going forward was terrifying too. This is where I find myself right now. Now I am about to attempt the leap for a second time, this time more prepared and aware of what’s ahead. I am going to try a different approach this time, that being excitement for the potential of everything that is possible when not bound to rigid structure! This will put me in a much more stable position able to cope with whatever challenges come through centering in myself. In order to do this I first need to disengage completely from regular human interaction and withdraw all of my energy into myself. This doesn’t allow room for engaging worldviews (in other words ideas about how things are in the world). Despite appearances, the world is fine, and it certainly doesn’t need me to interfere with it. It definitely doesn’t need me to project on to it false and limiting beliefs. This depression that I’m experiencing is only due to trying to interact and live in old ways after such a huge change. I am going to pull away from this completely and establish myself clearly in my own reality. From there I can radiate outwards and what I experience will become available to all, but I cannot do it while pretending to live in everyone else’s world. The games are so absolutely subtle you cannot see how thick they are until you truly withdraw from them. If there’s a single person you’re still playing with you won’t be able to spot them even in yourself. For this reason I want to give myself every possible opportunity to suceed in my goal, even though the goal only exists from a linear perspective 😉

You are beautiful beyond belief, your vastness is inconceivable. The key to Heaven is in the palm of your hand, can you believe that this is true?

On that note, look out for the epic course I will be launching soon. It’s called Embracing Your Greatness and will be fully supporting you to do so!

Why Oneness is not Sustainable

Building on from my recent experiences and information given recently by Almine…

Recently I have been able to differentiate between Oneness and life “beyond the matrix”, with the former being something that is simply not sustainable. Living in Oneness and living “beyond the matrix” are not the same thing. Oneness is the reality that focuses primarily on the One vs the many, but this too is polarity. To over-polarise into the One and forsake the gift of individuation is rife with problems of its own and thus it is not something to aim for. It completely overlooks the fact that diversity is the richness of life, and places again one thing over another, creating belief systems of what is “holy”. From the perspective of Oneness, separation seems “unholy”, but likewise from the perspective of separation we perceive Oneness to be “holiness”. Neither of these are correct, they are equally polarised views that stem from limited vision and not from true illumination.

Almine has recently stated that as a cosmos we have moved into Oneness but that we cannot stay there for the reason that it is unstable. It may come as a surprise to realise that Oneness is actually the opposite of separation! As such, it is still within duality, and to stay there would be polarised. Wherever we over-emphasise one pole it creates a swingback effect from the other, which means when we swing back to separation it will be more aggravated than ever.

I have experienced this polarity effect in basic practical living recently as I have attempted for short periods of time to live in the reality of Oneness. When doing this, my partner Niels who was not doing the same thing found it impossible to understand why I had suddenly become “aggressive” (in his words). Likewise, I was completely baffled as to why he was experiencing this from me, as it was not my perspective at all and didn’t tally up with my “peaceful” experience. Nevertheless, I noticed that he was also causing a degree of irritation in me for no particular reason, and we finally figured out what it was. It was that the reality I was living in was an opposite reality to his, thus we experienced opposition in each other that was previously not there. This problem was rectified when I moved beyond Oneness and chose instead to express from beyond the matrix, which is different.

“Beyond the matrix” is referring to actually moving “through” and thus combining our cosmic perspective with our larger perspective that is beyond cosmic identity. In this way, we remain self-aware of our unique individuated role but are similataneously aware of the unindividuated Infinite Ocean. The currents and the Ocean are free to weave and dance through each other with minimal friction. Through combining perspectives we can express within the matrix but from beyond it, “in the world but not of it” as it were. In Oneness, it is very hard to engage with the world at all. On the other hand, to combine all allows harmonious engagement with the everyday activities of human life, which is where the true magic happens and the highest potential lies. It is not in turning away from the world that we find the greatest opportunity, it is in the humility of once again being human. The difference is that we never forget our largest perspective beyond all identity, and thus is is clear that every experience is purely for the sake of delight.

In expressing from beyond the matrix, body, soul and spirit are integrated. We cannot disengage from these to live at the highest level. It is not the most enlightened choice to give up the experience of the body, yet there is a fine line in not succumbing to its tyranny. For example, one of the things that is extremely obvious from a larger perspective is that our perspective of sexuality has been completely skewed. Sexuality is a vitally important component of living, and there is nothing unholy about authentic sexual expression. There is a huge difference between depravity and unboundedness, with unbounded expression being necessary to leverage evolution.

In truth, there is nothing holy or unholy. All is simply the spontaneously unfolding expression of the One Life. There is actually nothing valuable in the grand scheme of things, not least one thing more valuable than another. We must see through a wide-angled lens to perceive the validity of all perspectives.

With Oneness being an opposite to separation, it still presents the very same problems that opposites will bring in any other circumstance. The one who is in separation perceives the one in Oneness as hostile, and so too does the one in Oneness experience hostility from the fragmented many. This is because they are in opposite realities to one another, and opposites are always hostile, even when they appear as “lofty”.

In order to combine both perspectives, a large degree of self-awareness is required. This is not simply the awareness of the Self as unindividuated awareness but awareness of the self in terms of the unique role that one is playing on the stage of life. We must be able to see the value of our individuation as a unique expression of the Infinite and to express authentically what is ours to do.

The following is not intended to be a plug for my services, but it’s a good example of what I’m talking about here. In my private coaching services, one of the things we place a major focus on is establishing in the individual awareness of their unique role in the cosmos. This eliminates the influence of the small self to a large degree while simulataneoulsy strengthening self-awareness, which seems like a paradox. It puts things in a larger perspective, yet this still pertains to cosmic identity. We will eventually need to move beyond cosmic identity too. It is the perspective from “beyond” cosmic identity that can see life outside of the matrix and thus express authentically and free from tyranny within it. The matrix is intended to be a playground for exploration, but instead it acts as a tyrant because we bind ourselves to identity.

There is a very prevalent belief system in spiritual circles that says that self-awareness is unenlightened, that the one who is self-aware is egotistical when this is not the case. There is a huge difference between self-awareness and self importance, and the former is mostly unrecognised due to the prevalence of the latter. Here we delve into the realm of subtle nuances, which really must be felt to be grasped completely. Oftentimes the tribe will reject the one who is self-aware, because they are a threat to the security of the tribe. If one can see the tribal games, they threaten those who play them, thus it is in the interests of the tribe to eliminate self-awareness. It is very common that members of spiritual communities will identity themselves as “souls” because they believe the soul is in Oneness and this is the holiest place to be. Yes, it is the case that Oneness is the domain of the soul. But it is still a polarity and entrapment there causes big problems. Self-awareness is needed to move beyond the lure of polarising into any particular direction and so experiencing hostility. Oneness is the direction of within, which causes without to be hostile, meaning that we cannot function amid the world at large. We are here to bring higher consciousness amid humanity at large, and to do this we must move “through” and express all components equally.

Soul is opposite to body and spirit is opposite to both – we need all three of these perspectives to live from beyond the matrix. While we identity with any of these we are trapped within a cosmic grid (the matrix). It is not more enlightened to identify with soul than body (with identification with body being what we commonly call ego). Likewise it is no more enlightened to be identified with spirit, which is the realm that most ascended masters fall into. The final challenge of the ascended mastery realm is to combine the 9 directions and move through to the reality beyond the matrix. From here, the matrix can be used to express the role that is required to integrate with humanity and thus change humanity through physical presence.

The Function of Naguals in Formation – A Night of Eggstraordinary Insight

Saturday night I was due to be participating in a live webinar hosted by mystic Jocelyn Woods on “The Problem of the Mothers” – a metaphysical exploration of a psychoanalyst’s perspective on the dualism of existence and how this can be transcended (with the latter perspective of course being added through the eyes of Jocelyn herself).

On logging in to the webinar platform I was informed “you are the only one here”, although I could see the others present, which in itself struck me as strange. After countless refreshes and a long period of waiting, I finally conceded that I was not meant to be participating in the way we had originally thought and left the room for a few minutes.

What transpired immediately having left the room was a bizarre series of events that I could not possibly have anticipated and which were unmistakably linked to this session. I had felt immediately on sitting down to enter the session the deep connection with Jocelyn and that something very huge was in the process of unfolding. Having left the room I encountered Niels (another Nagual), who pushed the scenario deeper with a series of questions. To my great surprise I experienced these questions asked in innocence as an assault of some kind, which led to an impromptu and very heated discussion on metaphysics in another area of the house. Having resolved what was clearly a disconnect, Niels left the room again himself. To cut a very long story short, I found myself lying on the floor in the same room several minutes later in a deep trance state, having been flung completely out of the cosmos into the Unknowable that lies beyond.

I want to describe a little bit about my experience of “beyond the cosmic matrix” and the experience of leaving the cosmos and then bringing that awareness back in again. In observing what was occurring as it happened I found I had no real choice but to surrender to a complete and total merging with Source through my physical experience. What was occurring was the combining of both of my luminous cocoons to experience first unindividuated beingness and then my unique cosmic expression in unison. Interestingly, I found I had no desire not to surrender, I could not conceive of anything more desirable than Oneness at that moment. Even the concept of there being a desire seems entirely non-sensical, it was merely an automatic merging with the Infinite stream of existence as it flowed.

This demonstrates to me that my relentless work on yielding to resistance over the previous months of challenges was in preparation for this experience. Furthermore the sincere intent to release the fear of my vastness has now paid off in direct experience of what I truly am (Infinite).

What actually occurred to me on Saturday night was a most extraordinary event, the most intense spiritual experience of my life so far: I achieved the resurrection of spirit. This enabled me to move into the reality of No Opposites, where I was handed into the hands of the Mother as I passed beyond the cosmic boundaries. Having completely lost all individuation I realised my true nature as the Ocean itself dancing upon the canvas of the cosmos which is merely a stage on which to express. I have never in conscious memory experienced anything even remotely like this. Upon leaving the cosmos, my heart stopped momentarily as I passed through a tunnel. From “the other side” as it were I was able to see information beyond my wildest dreams. I understood on an entirely different level that the cosmos is a dream, to such an extent that it has inspired me to create an art project on this topic. Observing through the eyes of the Infinite I “woke up” as Alice underneath a tree, or in physicality lying on the floor, at which point Niels entered the room again.

Becoming aware of my “beyond” nature and then moving back into the cosmos I saw that indeed what had occurred was a combining of both perspectives. I now contained the awareness of both the Mother and the Father, with the masculine holding the space of the cosmos open for exploration purposes. As waves upon waves of incredible insight that left me literally awe-struck and unable to move or speak continued to pour in it began to dawn on me what was occurring in the interaction between the perspectives of both myself and Jocelyn as well as Niels, who was acting as an anchor for the expedition. I was shown vision after vision of how Naguals function in formation and the new role of the Nagual in the changing cosmos. It became clear that Jocelyn was asking the leading questions and steering the expedition, whereas Niels was asking for clarification and holding the space as a reference point. It appeared that my particular role this time was to “go out” and get new information, which then fed back directly to Jocelyn who presented it live, creating alchemy.

Outside of the cosmos, I was able to observe a lot more on the nature of the Nagual’s double luminous cocoon. The Nagual has a double cocoon representing not just the cosmos but the Infinite who formed it, giving double energy and thus enhanced perspective. I saw that previously I was only observing myself on a cosmic level, I had no direct experience in physicality of my Infinite aspect. Although I had previously conceptualised my being as Infinite I had still felt finite in physicality. This time was a complete merging with Source in the physical which produced the effect of feeling as the One Ocean that never ends. Indeed it became apparent to me that “you are the only one here”.

The experience of merging in body with Source was not at all like one would expect, I had in earlier stages of development expected it to be a “death” of sorts. Instead it was a “coming home” to what felt completely natural, with the earlier stage of physical tension seeming bizarre in comparison. One of the primary things to note was the previous tension between spirit and body, which was completely alleviated through the resurrection of the spirit. It was this resurrection which I have been working towards achieving for over a year that allowed finally the “moving beyond” my cosmic confinement. It is an incredibly freely sense to now know that I was never confined in what is nothing more than a dream, a backdrop against which to play with life. Interestingly I can move in and out now as it pleases me to do by simply switching between cocoons or engaging both at once, plus there is always the option to pretend to be limited for learning purposes (this is what we have done when we are in reality Infinity expressing).

One of the first things I noticed was the cessation of all judgement of the body. It is the soul realm that judges, and I see only perfection in the majestic expression that is form. Formlessness too is an illusion, the fluid field of formless form assembles according to our intent. Why not then align intent with the intent of Infinite One, who expressed in this way as adoration in action? Infinity beholds the beauty in all of life, and the body is rapturous divinity in Her eyes.

Recognising myself as the Source of my being now in a very tangible sense, I see that there is an Infinite flow of supply. Furthermore, there is an Infinite flow of demand in terms of how far life is willing to push itself – Infinitely. There are no heights to which we cannot explore, we are truly the eagle sailing on the winds of eternity. We are the adventurer on the epic quest of existence, we are the Cosmic Child singing its song to rapturous applause. Furthermore, there is never anything that is not in expression, is is merely that we do not hear all the notes of existence at once. For if we did, where would be the song? The song is in the paradox, it is in the poetry. We are the paradox and we are the poetry, and all expresses in perfect timing. We are never in the wrong place at the wrong time, perhaps it is simply not yet our time to sing. Or on the other hand, perhaps it is.

I realised that before, in only accessing one cocoon I had perceived myself in relation to the cosmos only. “In relation” suggests two rather than One, meaning it is a reality of duality and not of Oneness. The cosmos does not need to be a dream of separation, by accessing the Infinite that lies beyond it can be a playground of delight. The insights I had been receiving in the past for the very most part pertained to the Mother within the dream, a dream which she has left years ago. Now able to access insight “from beyond” I realise the true extend of what I was missing. The vast majority of everything lies within this realm of “Unknowability” (the feminine). The masculine is everything that is known, and even unknown. In previous stages of my development I experienced the deep pain of the sensation of aloneness as I became empty. Here I was able to experience All-Oneness, the Ocean contained in the current and the current in the Ocean.

Within the matrix, which is a procreational reality, the luminous cocoon is shaped like an egg. It alludes to the need to penetrate or be penetrated in order to perpetuate life, or to be cracked or broken in some way – creating a reality of pain. Outside of the matrix the luminous cocoon is spherical. No longer in his human egg shape, the Nagual becomes an Immaculate being able to conceive of realities entirely through alchemy with the Infinite. The cracking of the cocoon as an egg is no longer necessary, instead it expands exponentially in ripples as we experience directly the Ocean of Infinite Life. No “break throughs” are required, only expression.

Outside of the cosmos, the egg ceases to be an egg. We are no longer contained within the boundaries of a shell.

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These insights build on recent work by Jocelyn Woods, a remarkable mystic and pioneer of the New Age. See below for information on how to access Jocelyn’s materials and find out more about who she is and the projects she is working on

View Jocelyn’s current project Ecstasy of a Cripple: The Resurrection of Passion here – http://www.facebook.com/resurrectionofpassion

Stay tuned for Part 2 tomorrow…

The Root of War

I have noticed that one of the the things that humanity seeks in a tribe (and often the tribe is family) is commonalities. They look for things that are similar enough they can be debated to a small degree of tension, which maintains the back and forth pull of opposites that keeps the tribe in place.

On a larger level then, the tribe could be likened to the whole of humanity in the matrix. Eventually you reach a point where there are no commonalities with anyone within the matrix which leaves no option but to leave, and that’s where I’m at now.

I’m making the final preparations both internally and externally, in my body and various other expressions, to make this possible, and then I will be able to share how I’ve done it in practical terms.

For me right now it is extremely tedious not to mention uncomfortable attempting to remain with even one finger “inside the fishbowl” and I would imagine there are others who feel this way.

One could ask what I’m holding on for, and the truth is I’m running out of reasons I could possibly invent. One of the biggest roadblocks I would say is fear with regards to connections to others, or basically the fishbowl tribe. What will happen to them, how will I interact, will I be rejected, etc. Honestly, the answer is unknowable, and in fact the only way to escape the fishbowl is to stop seeking the answers in order to be able to go where mind can’t go and stay there on a permanent basis, from which point actually anything can be dealt with in truly miraculous ways and without ever having to wonder about the confines of either human or cosmic boundaries again.

Meanwhile, I bide my time, like a cat restlessly stalking a mouse whose time is almost nigh. In this case, the mouse is the rational mind, and I’m going to have fun chewing it up.

Introducing Myself

I realised I have never really done this, so perhaps now would be a good time.

Hello my name is Ciara.

I am a being of love and I have come to Earth with the sole purpose of radically shaking things up. I am a Nagual being, which means that I have a specific type of energy and makeup that contains different components to most, and therefore gives me specific functions which are the primary functions that I operate with as a being here on the Earth. Among these functions are vast amounts of energy, which I use very successfully for things such as accessing insight, working on various different levels of existence simultaneously, and making rapid advancements in consciousness at warp speed.

As a result of these things, I have lived my life moving very quickly from one thing to the next and from one place, one group of people, and one task to the next, never really pausing for too long. It has left me with very few personal connections, but an extremely wide wide of connections with whom I have briefly interacted, and very little establishment in any particular place. Despite this, I have profoundly deep roots that stretch right into the core of myself, and with this it doesn’t really matter if I never stand still for more than a second.

I was born fully conscious of myself and as a young child experienced much of my life out of body, as I struggled to become accustomed to the unfamiliar territory of such a dense plane of existence and the fact of having a body in the first place, something which was unusual to me. In addition to this, I had extreme sensitivity to almost everything, and the onslaught of chemicals as well as sensory stimulation on the Earth drove me almost to distraction. The only real escape was to live outside the body as much as possible, during which time I interacted primarily with the soul and spirit realms and various other things in between. I formed deep bonds with lifeforms that were invisible to others, and found solace in my relationship with plants and the animals I encountered. Various horrible experiences during early childhood compounded my resistance to engaging with physicality, and so spirituality and all it entails became by primary focus. At age 6 I made a life-altering move with my family from London to a small village in Ireland, which was totally unprepared for the likes of me.

Like most I through the regular school system, which found it very difficult to cope with my particular way of being, which included for me highly active skills of multi-level and multi-sensory perception that have been fully functioning since I was born, that made it almost impossible to engage with the basic level of experience that the school system required. Some might call these “psychic abilities”, but that really does not give any kind of explanation as to what they actually are. Due to my ability to “see, hear and feel things that aren’t there”, I was eventually at age 14 entered into the world of child psychiatry in an attempt to figure out “what was wrong with me” which eventually led to a diagnose with the common learning disorder ADHD and subsequent high dosage medication with the amphetamine drug Ritalin. In addition to this, I was given other diagnoses including Scotopic Sensitivity Syndrome (extreme sensitivity to light), Sensory Integrative Disorder, mild Dyspraxia, and so forth. What these did was basically put me in a box of “you’re broken, but at least now we understand you”.

When I came off Ritalin at age 18, without my doctor’s permission, I was a very damaged young person. I can honestly say that this drug causes a significant amount of damage to the neurology of the brain and body, as well as psychological damage due to the fact that it distorts one’s perception of reality (it is an amphetamine, after all). As I was already spiritually inclined, this drug opened me up to experience some very unpleasant things within the astral realms, in much the same was as mild psychedelic would for an unprepared child, and acted as a gateway into a world which it probably would have been better for me not to go into. At age 17 I had fled from my childhood town as soon as I could and went straight into college, believing that this was the only way for me to have a chance at a normal life, only to find that I could cope no better there than I had in school, and dropped out without even completing the first year. I took up a job in a call centre just to get by, and sunk rapidly into a deep depression. At 17 I had ended up in an emotionally and psychologically abusive relationship which I escaped just before it became physical, and found myself alone with no friends or connections in Ireland’s capital city Dublin two years later, after 4 home moves and a request for my job to transfer me to the city so that I could escape further from where I had been thinking that it was a physical process that was needed. In the 6 years since I have moved home a further 13 times. Faced with the prospect that something had to be flipped entirely on its head – I booked a three week trip to Canada prepared to leave everything I had ever known behind and come back a new person. True to my intention, this catalysed the beginning of the complete breakdown of everything that I had previously believed about myself. My heart began to crack back open into the childlike innocence and happiness I had lost, and I saw shimmers of light shining through.

On my return to Ireland, I moved back to the town where I had first gone to college. A rapid process of change unfolded, which began with meeting somebody who would form a very imporant part of my life and my healing process for several years, and who stood by my side while I went through a complete breakdown of all that had gone before. Following the obvious magical granting of my previous request, my faith in something more was restored, and I prayed every day for more answers to be revealed. To my astonishment, it wasn’t long before I found myself passing a window poster that showed a very surprising course available in my town to which I was able to apply, knowing immediately I would be accepted. It was a course on holistic health, and though I only stayed for one year, it was enough to push me headlong into the several years that came next. During the duration of that year I received attunements into the healing modality of reiki and although the actual practice was never for me, the energy that was pulsed through me in that time was almost the entirety of what it seems I was enrolled on the course for. It began a cleansing process so intense that for an entire 3 week period I was suicidal, but yet I knew on a very deep level what was going on. In those 3 weeks, which were the 3 weeks in the run up to my 21st birthday, I recapitulated an entire 7 years worth of previous experience. By several weeks after my 21st birthday, I was in a state of permanent bliss, with an absolute knowingness I was on a mission. I had no idea what the mission was, but I KNEW. I was ready.

Little did I know, the largest bulk of the mission for the next 5 years was going to be the complete uncovering of everything else about my past that I had actually forgotten, and I’m talking all of the lifetimes. The whole lot. I needed to remember everything, and to find out who exactly I really was. On top of that, I needed to heal the pain and trauma of the ages, and I needed to do this on a massive scale.

Shortly after my course ended it was decided that I would move yet again, this time to Brighton, England. No sooner had I arrived there than I knew I was on the first leg of the biggest initiation yet. I cannot even begin to describe what has unfolded since then, but I will try just a little bit. I went to Brighton thinking “Great, this is my place. Now I can settle”. But that was not to be the case. I was pushed through initiation after initiation, never being allowed to stop and even really make friends or put down roots. In Brighton I met more old soul connections than I can count on all my digits, and some of them showed me in glaring detail exactly the nature of the pains that had haunted me for aeons, and caused the exact same experiences in this lifetime to repeat themselves so I could get the insights. Those who showed me my beauty I was never allowed to become close to. As always, I was to do the work, and then keep moving. Once again, after two years, I found myself completely isolated and living alone. I knew at that point I had no option but to be myself in my entirety, and I flung myself completely into the arms of God and gave myself up. It was clear I was meant to be standing alone, not in aloneness because we are never alone, but as a solitary being. I did not belong to any spiritual group, I did not belong to any tribe or community, I belonged to the Infinite, and my home was wherever I was standing. After a terrible period of intense loneliness, not yet aware of my nature as the door of everything, there suddenly came a deep knowing that I must return to Ireland for some purpose, and through a series of events that presented themselves allowing that to happen, here I am.

On my final return to Ireland, it was made immediately clear that I am my own best friend, and my job is not to live a normal life as others describe it. I must follow without fear every step I was directed by God to take, and this I have done. It has taken me on the most incredible journey, which included an entire year of withdrawal from interaction, an indescribable battle with the false God of the tyrannical spirit, a meeting with the devil himself, and several more moves to various locations around the country which eventually led me to…me. Ah yes, it turns out that I am all things. Finally I have arrived at the stop I am standing in now – ready to actually introduce myself to the world. My strong suit is in spirituality, and my experience is what I want to share with you. Let this be the start.

You can find me on my main website here –
http://www.whitecloudwarriors.com

On my blog here –
http://www.captainexcellent.com

And on my secondary blogs here and here –
http://sossaveourselves.wordpress.com
http://ascensionsuite101.com